((it breaks within your chest now)) ([info]f_dilettante_l) wrote,
2005-08-31 14:56:00
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I got your love letters.. and I threw them all away...

Soo Tori is having a party this Sunday.

My parents say I can't go up to Minnesota over Labor Day...
I seriously cried really hard when I got that news. I had been hoping and hoping I had proved myself mature enough to go alone. I guess not. It's like, hello? Can my heart be any more broken? I'm having troubles with boys because I cant understand them. I'm having troubles with girls because one day they'll love me, the next they hate me. I just want to wake up and be home. I mean yeah I love the people I've met down here, I just wish I could go home... even just for 3 days.

i cut again

as much as I HATE to admit it, I did.

In eagan I had some people to keep me accountable, to do wrist and ankle checks. Down here I have no one and I can lie over the internet. I just wish someone would love me enough just to check up on me every once in a while.

Love... ohh heavens. I wish I could feel that again... even just a little bit. I don't mean a friends love or brotherly love... I want to be loved. I want a homecoming date. I want someone to hold my hand. I want to be beautiful. I need ... something.

Gahh, I dont know. I wish being a teenager wasn't so hard.

Any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated... thanks...

♥ bekah lynn

p.s. if you go to TFA... please just do a wrist check randomly once or twice a week, it would really help me out...

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[info]_eyesoftragedy_

August 31 2005, 19:16:19 UTC 6 years ago

Bek- I love you babe, Im so sorry everythings not going well and that you cant come up for labor day but I will see you soon I promise. I know guys are jerks because Ive gotten stood up 3 times in 2 days, it sucks but ya know boys will be boys. I cant wait to see you, Call me if oyu need ANYTHING. Im always here for you.

<3Nicole.

[info]rocketsummerx

August 31 2005, 19:26:27 UTC 6 years ago

bekah my love! things will get better! I wish you could come up too! but don't worry, you'll be up here as soon as you know it! you can stay with me! haha and baby you are BEAUTIFUL! boys are just stupid, they don't understand us girls. Just don't give up on yourself bekah, i know you can do this, it just takes time. i know i hate time too. Just keep trying to convince your parents you're mature enough, don't stop. i love you and miss you sooo much. even though we haven't been that close last year, i still miss our times! i love you!

♥ fee

Anonymous

August 31 2005, 20:49:47 UTC 6 years ago

hey!

hey sorry to hear all that bad shits happening but you need to buy yourself a nice good old fashon blood bath of a video game and take your anger out on that ...not yourself and dont worry were comeing down spring break if it kills us



oh yea and this is dom i dont have a lj so yea
peace

[info]pinkfreezies123

August 31 2005, 21:23:48 UTC 6 years ago

bekah!! aww sweetie!! I'm sooo sorry all this is happening!! I love you so much deary and miss you dearly! it will all get better I promise!! I can't wait until I see you again darling! it's been wayyy too long!! I love you sooo much!! call me ANYTIME!

you are my sunshine!! : )

<33 Amy

[info]goldenpen

August 31 2005, 23:48:45 UTC 6 years ago

honey this is kelly...i love you so much...and i'll do wrist check on you anytime...if you need someone to talk to i'm always always here for you...much love.

[info]domingo_kawaii

September 1 2005, 00:24:12 UTC 6 years ago

i can't check no more =[

ah...thanks for the call hun. lol what frustrating boys eh? i miss you ... lets talk soon k? ... i miss you...


cya soon! maybe during christmas ;]

[info]hi_ho_biznitch

October 8 2005, 06:17:30 UTC 6 years ago

oh shoot son.

im checkin baby. no doubt.
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